They're airing this half-assed French series here, that deals with the inquisition in the south of France circa 1370, the black death and everything. The main character is a twisted great inquisitor, zealous as hell (haha) and unforgiving. A real misguided asshole.
Point is: since I started watching this show I've been taking an interest in Christianity (and shit). As in, becoming a religious person. That character is so convinced and everything is so crystal-clear in his head that it makes his beliefs somewhat appealing to me, even though he's obviously full of shit and wrong regarding just about everything. He knows the purpose of his own existence and I envy him for that. You have no idea how much.
I read the Old Testament a few years ago when I was suffering of severe insomnia (it helped falling asleep 50% of the time, thank God for that I guess...) and thought it was a fantastic and unmatchable pile of crap, but, I don't know. There's something, I can't name what exactly. Maybe I'll read the New.
I've mixed beers with medication tonight (I almost never do that of course) so I'm probably not entirely lucid. Still, makes me wonder: can I be a religious dude? Am I able to live a lie? Am I willing to? There's so much shit in my life I'm maybe just being vulnerable and weak. I don't know.
Somehow I doubt it but I'll ask anyway, have some of you been there before?
Oh and Addy: blog. I'll do the same. Haha.