hmm. had to get something off my chest.
i had a girlfriend with whom i broke up. i did it rather childishly, but she was my first girlfriend, i was younger, and it was at a time of my life where all i could think of was changing everything - get out of portugal, get a job outside my invasive (it really is the right word) family business, etc. . we remained close friends for about a year and a half after that, just as we had been before being a couple, speaking almost every day. in january she stopped speaking to me, except when it was a mutual friend's birthday or some shit, and this one time when she emailed me after 4 months of silence to ask for some old university project she needed (that really hurt).
i dunno. it's just so weird. i know it's awkward to hang out with your ex and stuff, but to me it's so weird that someone can be the centre of your universe, and you theirs, and then nothing. i hate going to these mutual friend things because she's going to be there and i have to pretend i'm ok with her. i just really wanted to believe that when she walked into the computer room at uni on the night we met, and we hit it off almost immediately, we'd be in each others' lives forever. it's such a shame that after making each other smile so much, as good friends and each other's first -friends, this is what we're reduced to. that goddamn gotye song.
/whine