[myspace]Oh man, quite a lot has happened over the course of three hours. But first, some context;
Right now I am extremely tired. The reason being that I hardly got any sleep last night after going out with my sis and her friends. After all of the funny business with Gemma I couldn't sleep at all. You know how when you are really infatuated with someone and they get right into your system and you're just buzzing? So I'm lying there all night in bed just enjoying that feeling which I haven't felt since high school. When I eventually did fall asleep I had a very profound dream.
I dreamt that I had gone out by myself one day when out of the blue someone presented me with a terracotta bust of a Native American girl's head. The person asked me to identify it and I told them what it was, but then I noticed that it had some Spanish words on the back. I figured I'll go ask Gemma what it means, what with her being a Spaniard herself. So she translates it for me and suddenly the statue becomes a real girl, who has now become mine and Gemma's adopted daughter. I figured that I had a wife at home but that this life could be better. Gemma looks at me and says "I love you" and waited for a response. Then I noticed standing next to me were my older brother and sister, both waiting to see what I'd say as well. I just couldn't bring myself to reply in their presence, because my dodgy double life would be exposed. So I just said that this wasn't right and the last thing I remember was Gemma and our daughter walking away in one direction and me watching them leave by myself.
So today I drove out to the botanical gardens and spent the day in quiet thought. I must say that I love my wife totally and there would be no way in hell that I would cheat on her, but I really had to spend the time to get this girl out of my system. It was as if the gods created my perfect woman on Mount Olympus and dangled her in front of me to see if I'd make some terrible mistake. After much logical deliberation I have pretty much purged myself of the incredible/unwelcome feeling I had about her the night before.
Which brings us to tonight.
I was just over my little sister's house to help her pack her last few things and to say goodbye. She left me a whole heap of cool stuff that she couldn't take with her such as a shitload of vintage Aerosmith albums, art supplies and an enormous Dali painting. Very cool. So we are sitting there and my wife shows up, as we knew she was on her way over, and all was good. Then Gemma showed up to say her goodbyes as well. Uh oh. I honestly didn't realise it but my missus busted me staring at Gemma the whole time she was there, and I got a right royal serving when we got home. I had to make out that I was just following the conversation, but she's very cluey and there was much truth to her perceptions. At least tonight I learned Gem has quit the vets and now that with my sister is gone I probably won't see her again for a very long time. This is both a huge relief and also a little sad. I would be very happy just to be good friends, but understandably my wife would never allow that.[myspace]
This was from tonight: Gem, my sis, my wife. Now if only I could get the two on the end to kiss. :?
