Yeah, I'm at odds with the idea of "deserve" in many (most?) cases. Sometimes shit (volcanoes, hurricanes, tsunamis, etc.) just happens, and could happen to you, and to think that because of somebodies very existence they deserve it is, yeah, kinda fucked up.
But I've been struggling with myself in regards to how I feel about the world.
I think being human and the plain act of being alive involves self-interest, and like I believe I've said elsewhere (somewhere about Marxism), I don't know that true altruism exists, if I think that every action is, at its most basic level, a selfish action.
That said, I appreciate/value people who get a kick (sense of satisfaction/pride/whatever) by performing positive actions/helping others more than people who are raging assholes/sociopaths who think only of themselves. I don't know where exactly I fall in this regard (though I'm pretty sure I'm not a sociopath), but I've been struggling with how I should act.
I recognize that many people are assholes and, for lack of a better word, terrible, and you (OP) have provided many examples of this. But I think there is a lot of beauty in the world, and that many people, despite having their flaws (because, after all, they're people) can be positive, and have a positive influence on the world. And, going back to selfishness, I don't see the use in solely focusing on the evil in the world, because I don't want to walk around the world/my life being miserable. This could be because I don't see a ton of negative stuff going on around me as you do.
Also, humanity isn't really all that old in the context of Earth, let alone in the context of the universe, and one day we're all going to die and the universe will continue on without us. I try to hold this in my mind when I get worked up over rather insignificant shit, but the same idea can also be used as a justification to do pretty much anything, so I don't know.
Ambiguous ramblings over now.
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