Metal Reviews

I went through a period three years ago where I would have frequent panic/anxiety attacks. I decided not to go to a doctor/psychiatrist about it, thinking it would eventually fade out. And it did. Yet, after being diagnosed last December and this January, it has been concluded that I have severe psychosis, major depression, and strong symptoms of anxiety and bipolar disorder. I am beginning to recover and rehabiltate from the depression, being as it only got worse before I finally saw a psychiatrist about it. There was talk of hospitalization and documentation, yet at this point in recovery(I'm on a med), none of this will be necessary anymore; lest I relapse horribly. I still have small relapses now and then, but nothing terribly serious. I am still not that positive, but at this point have things under control, more or less.
I am not sure if I can determine one or a few embarrasing situations I have been the center of, being as there have been many and I have a very bad memory. The first time I got busted(pot/cigarettes) was rather awkward. For someone known as being quiet and reserved, I have still done stupid shit at parties, as we all have, but those things get to the point where they don't really mean much in actuality. There are also various experiences when I was younger(i.e. vomiting in public). There are also more conscientious things that could be considered embarrasing(i.e. like noodles saying he had to admit he was cheating on his girl), that I, and we all, have experienced.

I used to have pretty bad panic attacks which ended up having me miss almost a whole year of school, being on paxil for about a year and having to see a psychiatrist...I also have a pretty strong case of arachnophobia, I have a pretty hard time stepping foot into my basement.

Bugs creep me out. Sometimes I squel like a little girl when they come too close to me....


seriously

Hrmmm depression, panic attacks, anxiety, an affinity for metal. I see a pattern around here. :?

I was a frequent weed smoker 3 years ago for one whole year, then I quit, and the rest of the 2 years went in severe depression, panic attacks and the palpitations. I don't see a connection but the weird thing is that after 2 years this January I smoked weed once again and had the biggest panic attack of my life afterwards, a relapse as they say. But it only lasted for a month since I had gotten used to panic attacks and was still using anti depressants, they slowly went away.

Maybe it might be connected, but anyway I am not smoking anymore and probably will not smoke for the rest of my life. Because that one month was hell, much like those 2 years.

Then again I smoke cigarettes, so it's quite likely that it makes those palpitations worse but I'm not worrying too much, they aren't that bad, just annoying.

lol. i think bugs freak practically everybody out. i'm not really afraid of spiders or roaches, but the big freaky ones do. like scorpions.

and kathaarian, you smoke heavily now? i do. and i realise that my heartbeats pretty irregular as well. and it really tires me like mad when i play football. i even got worried to play footy cos i realised i was getting weaker and breathe far heavier than anybody. but i never did weed though. wait...twice i think i did it.

I have hypertension, which can be an extremely dangerous thing, but it's hereditary, and takes a bunch of medication, but thankfully, I've been controlling it and have yet to take any meds. And... while I write this my friend tells me her mom died... wow, talk about some pretty depressing stuff.

I used to punch myself in the face repeatidly when I failed at anything. That's about it on that topic... and I haven't done that in almost a year. I'm a stable person.

But more specific to the topic, I have fainted a few times too. Except mine are much more random. I've fainted four or five times in my life, and always for menial reasons, and always in public places. Passing out in physics class in grade 11 was probably the worst.

Nothing along those lines.

I was in a bar in China and caused a major freak out with the girls work their when I kept asking them in Mandarian if they wanted to go (it was like 5AM and I was just wondering if they wanted to close to go home). I got really crazed looks and lots no and don't want in Chinese back. Later on asked my friend what i had said because he taught me a lot of Mandarian. And he was laughing his ass off and was like, yeah, but the way you said it is the way you ask hookers to go with you.....lol

I haven't flipped out in awhile, drinking water and thinking about sex helps.

Everyones talked about their mental problems before, nut just cos i feel like it:

OCD
Depression (washing hands)

Thats what i've got.

I do smoke a lot, but I think this was happening before I smoked, I'm not sure but I'm sure smoking is making it worse.

On the other hand I don't think I can quit smoking. I tried quitting this year (and posted in this forum about it) I went crazy, with extreme withdrawal symptoms! Smoking helps me deal with stress, quitting it made everything worse.

Jesus H Christ, if I saw that thing I would kill myself just so it couldn't hurt me.


Wow, Zad is one cold motherfucker. :shock: So, is she dead now, do you think? Or do think she killed herself because there was no point continuing her terminal life without her job? I hope you bought the best pack of cigarettes ever with your blood money?

By the way, how did you blame her, exactly? Were you all like "uhhh.....yeah, I was in the back room and I saw Senga lift the money out of the til."

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Anyway, I had a pretty embarrasing experience recently. Left me feeling like I'd been chemically castrated by someone who was only trying to be nice. Don't really want to talk about it just now. :(

Does it involve the 80's rock loving chick?

Sure does. Jesus I really felt like shit last night. But pffft, fuck it, I'm going to see Twisted Sister tonight and leaving for Sweden Rock tomorrow. I can forget all about that stupid shit for a week.

I think she's still alive. And yes, I feel bad about it now.



She was under suspicion anyway for it, and other thefts (that weren't me), so it wasn't quite like that.



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speaking about withdrawal symptoms, i'm actually getting worried. i tried quitting a few times. i started breathing heavily and i was like gasping for breathe even though i just walked up A flight of stairs. and i realised my hands were even trembling...just like a guy with parkinsons.

so i've decided not to quit anytime soon. i need at least 2 packs of 14's a day. and everytime i play football, i need 1 stick before the match, 2 sticks in between. i realised i get charged up after smoking. my friends keep on poking fun when i play badly "go smoke and then play".

Nope, as I said "Don't really want to talk about it just now," especially not hunched over my PC in work. Lets just say I could write an emo song about the whole sad situation very easily.

Oh, I have light OCD. Forgot about that. But I just realized that it hasn't been acting up lately. Cool.

i'm so glad noone told any American Pie sort of embarrassing moments

I'm not going to respond to this because we have underaged people in this forum.